And now all I can hear is one

I have a crush. On Sky Ferreira. And her hair. And her voice. And her style. And her...ness.

She had me with "17" and since then I have not been able to stop listening to this luscious-maned creature of the light. Seriously. Look at her. I mean, come on. Beautiful girl with a beautiful voice. I firmly believe she's destined for stardom. "One" doesn't really showcase her real talent...for that just youtube her cover of Miike Snow's "Animal" or "Stand Back". Damn good.

She's one of those chicks who just has an aura about the way she dresses and does her thing. A Waffles girl (who doesn't die), a talent with a sidekick (her hair, DAAAHLING). Lovely. I do declare that Sky Ferreira is Summer 2010.

whaddaya think?

I'M GOING TO START USING THIS THING

It has been nearly a month since I have, but never fear. I'm gonna blog.

About fashion
and music
and life
and stuff

Although I guess it's kind of pointless if no one reads my stuff. Followers? Meh.

Summer is imminent

I haven't posted here in almost a month. But all is well. A bit of turmoil last week...however it's thankfully blown pretty much over. At least on my side.

SCHOOL IS ALMOST OUT! Yes, it is. I'm so happy. I need free time, I'm so burnt out. I can't wait to spend more time with my friends/boyfriend and not have to worry.

However... there are 5 things I want to accomplish for summer, and soon. Here they are:

1. Lose at least ten pounds
2. Get some semblance of a tan
3. Get another hair cut
4. Get toned/lose fat all over. I want a flat stomach, a gap between my thighs, a toned back, and skinny arms.
5. Stretch every day

I just wanna feel good, dude. I'm excited.

Life's not a bitch, life is a beautiful woman

I feel like I'm such a bitch sometimes. I can't even help it. I need to work on being a better person, helping out and listening to my friends and boyfriend more, being less sarcastic. I don't really know how, but I think I have to. I feel like a terrible friend/girlfriend, but I try to be good. I don't want to let anyone down.

Deep stuff.

Pah. This is the kind of thing I need to stop. I hate talking about feelings, even if it's writing about them. need to spend more time listening to other people, I don't have anything wrong. Some of my friends are having hard times right now...I just want to help them. I really only want that, but I don't know how to make them better. Makes me feel so incompetent. Worst feeling ever. ANYHOO!

Last competition this weekend, and THEN I can get my hair cut! Finally. Also, boyfriend and I's 7 month tomorrow. Woo.

purple

So I have come to the conclusion that the picture above is one of the most beautiful things evaaaar, I love her hair and her skinny little shoulder. I'll have shoulders like those when I lose 15 pounds.

Anyhow. Dance competition this weekend along with Evening With The Arts. Probably doing both. Shall be busy. Then another stressful pre-comp week, then another competition, then FREEDOM. I shall get my hair cut and my ear pierced, and try to get my mom to buy a scale. It will be great.

16th April

I need a scale, a hair cut, my boyfriend to call me, and to get pierced.

Soon.

I'm actually using this thing to drone about my life

The boyfriend and I's half-year anniversary was on the 10th. It was a lot of fun...we went to a park, then out to dinner, then we hung around his place. It was nice and simple. I had a good time.
I've been feeling kind of blah lately. Not sleeping well, my hair is a mess, I'm tired of school, I've been weirdly creatively drained and I need a scale. Poop. I'm never going to lose weight if I can't weigh myself everyday. Oh well. I'm getting some film developed today -- that should cheer me up.
But anyhoo, I made a list of things I wanna do before or during summer, following my dear friend Meghna :)

1. Get my tragus pierced or get an industrial piercing
2. Buy some good pastels and use them
3. Lose 10+ pounds
4. Make a cellophane mask for the Holga
5. Find a new band I like every week
6. Get a sketchbook and pencils
7. Get my hair cut
8. Get a tan
9. Buy a Minolta x700
10. Go to master classes
11. Take pilates/yogalates
12. Get stronger for better extension
13. Tie-dye stuff
14. Learn to cook Thai
15. Learn to develop my own film
16. Try making/modifying my own clothes
17. Read more Don Delillo
18. Drink more tea
19. Get a summer job
20. Get better arms
21. Buy more instant film
22. Get involved in theatre stuff outside of school
23. Try to learn to sing
24. Expand my dancing
25. Get a new phone

l'été

Love this picture. Beautiful colors...and I love the feeling -- it's so demure, so contenting to look at. Why aren't people like that anymore?

I've been thinking about summer lately. I think it's going to be a good one. I'll be going to the MPulse (most likely!), I'll be able to go to Top more often, I might get a job, and then I'm starting at wtmc. I hope it's good...I'm looking forward to it too much for it not to be. I want to make a list of stuff I want to accomplish, following Meghna's suit. Things that will make me happy, not even happy -- just content. The best feeling ever. I might post it. I might not. I don't know.

There is one thing that I know I want to get done. I want to look better. It's partially the reason I love the picture above; the girl in the photo has such a beautiful body. I feel like I could look like that. I'm really committing to looking the way that pleases me.

No more "I'll start tomorrow".
I'm going to be pleased with myself for once...I've spent 15 years never being wholly happy with myself. Meh.

emo rant?

Sometimes I just want to know the answers to stuff. Just snap and know, right? I feel like such a hypocrite for wanting that, because it goes against what I believe. I like having to work to know things, sometimes. But there are some things...some things. I feel like making the effort to find them out would expose too much, weaken me too much. I'd rather just know. Not have to ask, not have to pry or fight, because I don't like doing that, I don't like being vulnerable. And it seems like you are always, always vulnerable when you're trying to find the answers.
[I'm not talking math homework]
That's the worst feeling to me. Even the want to know things feels bad -- it feels weak, it feels so Normal Teenage Girl. And I hate that.

Hmph. I won't spout off on feelings anymore -- it doesn't feel any better writing it than talking about it. Ugh.

Starting Out

Helloooooo bloggers.
I'm not completely sure if I can guarantee that I'll use this simply for rambling about my life -- because really, who wants to read that? It'll probably be a melange of things, such as:

1.) Fashion things. Posting looks I've created or liked, that type of thing. I want to expand my fashion creativity, get feed back and such. I'd also like to perhaps find an invite to lookbook.nu or at least apply...not going to lie.

2.) Maybe documenting my forays into weight loss. Maybe calorie counts, maybe thinspo...I know a lot of people don't like that, but it might get posted. I'm sorry in advance.

3.) Perhaps...just perhaps...posting some of my fiction writing. Note the "perhapses." I'm extremely shy of letting anyone see my essays for school, let alone my few fictitious works.

4.) Posting my photography. (The picture in the title's a clip of a shot I took) I love, love, love analogue photography and lomography; I own a Holga, a lomo Fisheye, a Nikon N2000, and an Argus C3 Colormatic. It's a fun hobby.

But, in short, I'm excited in some narcissistic way to start blogging. Hopefully I'll actually be able to keep it up.